Personal Revelation (add on)

I know that there is supposed to be some prophet type person who hands you revelations, but I have been making a lot of my own revelations lately. Most of them are based on what other people have said to me or the way people act, but no one has really offered me a revelation, I seem to just be making them based upon my own thoughts and theories. They are based mostly on internal battles I have been having lately, like my most recent revelation has been one that I feel I shouldn't have had to have in order to realize i need to change some things. after a recent event, i really hurt and scared one of my closest friends. and it wa after talking to her and one other person, that i realized; i know who and what is important to me, and who and what is MOST important to me, but my actions don't reflect this. I knw what the right thing to do is, what i should do, but i choose to do the opposite, and i usually end up hurting the people i care about. And this most recent event really just slapped me in the face and made me realize that i basically have to kick myself back into shape, and force myself to start doing what i know i should until it becomes like second nature again, because i don't want to be this monster shadow of a person anymore.
another revelation i've had is that authority is all in our heads. I recently got into a fight with my mom, i stayed home from school because i didn't feel too well, but i was going to go to soccer practice and she told me i couldn't. i asked her why i couldn't go. she said because i didn't go to school. i said, "so, why can you tell me what to do?" She said "because i'm your mother" and i yelled that i didn't care that she was my mother, i could make my own decisions, and choose on my own, because i'd have to be doing that soon anyways. and she said fine, do what you want. I didn't end up going to soccer because one, i didn't end up feeling any better and two, i realized that while authority can be defied, you should have respect for those who deserve it, and i know my mom deserves my respect.
And i made a revelation that i do really want to go to college, but not just any college, i want to get into the schools that i want to go to. but the way i've been acting lately i might as well just go to a community college. i guess it is better late than never to realize that i need to stop procrastinating and slacking so much, but still, that leaves me with so much work to do with so little time. hopefully it's not too late, but my downfall is that i always expect things to stay the same and turn out alright, because i've never had a problem before so i just expect certain grades and certain consequenes now, which leads me to be careless.